If you go around lying to yourself and others. You are living a lie that won’t last long because nothing stays occult forever. Live a truthful life. Your friend will understand if you’re needy, insecure or not that bright. Whatever is your human condition they will accept as you’re. If they don’t forget about them because they never were your friend. You have to take the virtues as well as the flaws of the person who is always beside you in good and bad times. Who still have your back no matter what. Don’t giveaways you closest friend because of peer pressure from people who don’t even like you. The popular in the long run become unpopular. If you are not careful right at their side you will be; on the not so favorite bench. Remember geek will change with time for the better. Asshole never will. Keep your nose in the books, in the end, you will come on top.