Nobody knows how it begins; a lock of eyes, a tenderly touch of the hand, an invitation to lunch. Love could be at first sight or grow slowly. It is something you can feel but no see. A warm feeling who run from head to toe. You feel like walking on the cloud. Some live for that person and nobody else; that’s real love. No the love base on lust that make you go from flower to flower pollinating them. That isn’t love and isn’t worth it. A person like that you have to cut it off from the roots.
I remember my first platonic love. when I got close to her sweat cover all body and quiver from the emotion of closeness. At night, I laid on my bed thinking about what to said to her the next day. I wrote in my head a long love letter but when the time come my legs shake like yellow as soon I get close to her. I know that our love was mutual but I used to hang around with the wrong crowd. Once I was going to take the bus to go a college and for some reason my heart was jumping of joy. When we met on the bus I realize what has my heart all excited. We were in the university and still can’t talk to her. Thinking about it, I am a coward in the matters of the heart. In all my love relation the women have taken the lead except with the woman I love the most and broke my heart. I am so sensible that twenty-five years later still recovering. Don’t get me wrong we love each other very much. We leave together for four years in Germany. Yes, she was German and I am a Puerto Rican station in Deutschland. Some how the love got lost on the way but “such is life.”
What came after that is too sad to share with you. I was a wrecked of emotion; remember I wrote I am sensitive. So, between that and the Persian Golf War my mind was lost in a world of guild (PTSD) That all I will write about that. Lost in the state of mind I make a lot of love mistake along the way. I wasn’t prepared for a relation and failed in all the attend to have a companion for life. Now I have waited close to ten years to try again. I am in a long distant relationship with someone I met in Costa Rica five month ago to see how it goes.